I made a promise to myself at the beginning of this year. I promised I would slow down and cherish my last year with you. Spend more time at home and enjoying our time together, as next year you will be starting big school.
So far, I have lived up to my promise. I have not only spent time playing with you, being with you and embracing your childhood, I have appreciated every moment.
What I have realised is, I may slow down my lifestyle, however, I can not slow down time. As much as I wish there was a slow motion button or even a pause button, it just keeps speeding by at a rate my mind sometimes struggles to keep up with.
Already one quarter of our last year together has passed. I have been able to find joy in each and every day yet feel cheated that it's moving by so quickly.
Then I experience fleeting moments where I am reminded of your innocence and youngness and those are the moments I hold onto. A reminder to me that you are still at such a tender age and of course, reminded that you still are my little girl.
At times it doesn't feel fair that life can possibly pass us by this quickly. If only there were more minutes in the hour and hours in the day!
Then I stop focusing on the speed of time and instead realise how blessed we really are. Blessed that we can wake up each day and experience another day in this crazy thing called life. We are able to add one more day to our beautiful lives.
So tonight as I laid with you to sleep and watched as your sweet eyes drifted off into your slumber, I promised you that we would not only enjoy our last year together, but that I would never take my time with you for granted.
I kissed your sweet face and once again thanked God for blessing me the day he made me your Mumma.
Thank you my girl, thank you for being mine.
Mumma x
